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a little about me "before" 🌌


"Where on Earth am I??"

For starters, I grew up in a town called Normal, Illinois, and no.. I  did not have a "normal" experience living there. Ha...

My early childhood had a bit of sexual trauma. And it lead me to subconsciously seek out similar experiences, (a lot of us do that until the wound is in our faces loud enough)  

My older sister and I's parents split early on. Which was about the same time it became extremely normalized to have split parents, so part of me didn't even want to put that here..

But like many others back then, we normalized the experiences and suppressed the emotions that came up as a result. We thought it didn't matter, (and in many ways although it doesn't in the in grand scheme of things, it really does impact life as it grows up) 

I was also bullied and picked on for being small and having a high pitched voice.  Sexually shamed and called gay by sooo many people before I was like 12..

I remember there was this one day at lunch in junior high where i took like three hornets to the face with staples in them. But somehow I was the one that got sent to the principles office.. lol.

Most of junior and high school was not a positive social scene for me. (divinely so)  Yes I was involved with music and other extra curriculars such as tumbling/gymnastics,  but they were covered by the denser experiences.

And it was with this string of experiences,  I ended up turning to alcohol, among many other experimental drugs that I probably couldn't have read you the names of in high school..

Fast forward through the rest of high school and through the drama of my college experiences--  all the way to a near death experience I had in 2017,

This was a period of life which i reflect on today as my soul college.

During the NDE, I found myself in an etheric realm inside a large red movie theatre. 

And it felt like I was the only one in there. Like I was in a holding cell if you will. 

And I felt really excited to see what was behind the curtain. It really was like i knew exactly what was happening and i wanted the transition into the afterlife.

Picture a kid on Christmas morning seeing a mound of presents getting super pumped to open them. That's what it internally felt like being in this theatre.

Orchestral started playing, and the curtain started to pull back, and the most magnificent colors I had ever seen filled my eyes. 

I could feel the colors..

I know that doesn't make logical sense to say, but I felt them. In so many parts of my body- inside my eyes.. 

The experience felt like a big dose of ecstasy. 

But as all of this happened, this massive arm came from backstage and extended itself fully and closed the curtains on me.

It transitioned from healing music to a very realistic scene. And then i was kicked out.

But this experience clicked something for me.

Prior to this,  I had my own beliefs about a higher power. About God. 

But through that experience, I felt the confirmation of  a sense of disconnection I had my entire life up until this point.

It was like i finally realized what i was searching for..

Answers to questions based around the templates of reality. 

It opened my eyes beyond anything on the Earth plane had up until that point.

And that my friends is what really kickstarted started my journey into the mystical side of life.

From 2017 through 2020, I worked in restaurants from dishwashing, serving and bartending, being a manager at a couple different places in Naperville, Illinois.  

But on the side... I was engaging with spirit by reading tarot for friends out of guide books. Meditating. Watching documentaries that inspired me. I was collecting and researching crystals. Researching mysteries and concepts about quantum physics and entanglement.

This is also when i invested in my first intuition development class. 

You know... the good stuff to get this empathic starseed going.

During 2020, more change came. 

I was managing a really cool restaurant that i had to quit, I fell out of love from a relationship I adored but had to navigate because it was not in alignment.

I injured myself at a gym which led to a deeper discovery about avascular necrosis that needed to be taken care of more importantly than the initial injury of completely messing up my labrum.

Which led to me address the diagnosis' where i then put 100% of my focus on my health.  

In retrospect, what was really happening??

Everything in my life that was out of alignment and  ready to shift was being given the green light to be purged.

And the purge was happening on a very physical level.

This is also during the time I was called to absorb information through others. To learn. Which is essentially most of what I've been doing the past two and a half years. Learning and integrating new information and new skill to keep helping heal myself, which in turn allows me to hold space for others.

From the end of 2020 through 2022, I invested in multiple psychic development courses, intuition development, dark forces, and other esoteric knowledge based courses to support the development of work.

At the time, the spirit based work had evolved from playing with tarot and crystals to being intrigued with psychic and intuitive ability. Sharing free and low cost tarot readings. 

Being able to harness my extra sensory perception, and specifically, how to "see" in meditation.

And it is about within this timeframe I invested in an extended class to learn how to read the akashic records for self and other people.

But why I was called to the records?

I didn't really know why at the time. I just knew I was supposed to know how.

But if you asked me today, i'd say it's because they are an extremelyyy expansive tool and I was divinely guided to them.

If you've ever had a really powerful akashic record session, then you know..

But if you haven't, the level of  consciousness, the love,  the support  and wisdom that can accessed and imparted in such a short amount of time can be really transformational to say the least. Unforgettable to some.

They really do change us.

If you're feeling the call to see what it's like... <3

The only "obstacle" is you!

With love love love


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